"so this is the new year"

so here it is, the famed "new year, new me" blog post. i have spent all day thinking about what the new year means, and how we perceive time.

we usually think of the time of a year as a short line. the beginning of the line is january, and the end is december. at the end we start over, go back to the beginning, and create a whole new segment.

i, however, do not think of time that way. i have never felt too excited about celebrating new years eve, and felt silly counting down to a new year. i feel like we are still continuing on this line. the line that i've been traveling on my whole life. i've never felt like january 1st was a new start, but just the day after december 31st. you just keep following the line.

i do, however, believe that the line of time is circling. i feel that time has been wound up, like the film of a movie on a platter. the farther along we get, the larger the revolutions. we are only a fraction of a centimeter away from another time, and with bending the film, we can touch another period. it's the most basic and popular concept of time travel.

so aside from my deep thoughts about time and dimensions, i really have made resolutions, even though i try to make resolutions all year long. so it's more of me deciding to continue to work on what i've been doing for a while.

1. i will not put forth the effort to give anyone the time of day, when i am only a mere option. i am worth more than that, and i deserve more. even if this means i will have to go a while loving myself because no one else can love me better, than so be it.

2. i am going to show the world how much i care about my self esteem, and how i view myself. i am gorgeous. i am more than worth the attention. i am a divine creation, and i expect to be treated as such.

3. i am going to make a difference. slowly. day by day. i'm going to toms, i'm spreading the cranes, i'm writing post-it notes. i'm becoming an agent for change.

i'm excited to continue along this trail of time, and ready for another revolution of life.