we stalked the streets like animals
and danced as windows shattered
for our island, for the thrill of it, for everything that mattered.
this weekend was a one of events. i graduated with an associate's degree on friday, drove down to a close friend's reception on saturday, and drove back today. there are several things i learned over the past few days and thought about during the drive. these are those things:
1. people change. you can't expect your image of a person you had when they left to be the same when you see them a year later. but also remember that you aren't the same either, and that's a good thing sometimes.
2. people don't always treat you the way you want them to, or imagine them to. you have to throw out preconceived notions of how the weekend will pan out, and how they will act around you. then accept it and try to be conscious of your actions and be kind.
3. life is beautiful and happy. i sometimes put off the vibe that i'm bitter about my best friends getting married, but i'm not. i am so incredibly happy for my friends, and love that they are so happy and in love. i absolutely cannot wait until i fall in love and have that experience. it's something i am looking forward to, and wish my friends the best.
4. change is the only thing that's constant. i cannot escape it. i should stop trying. it terrifies me, it hurts, it's wonderful, it's fun, it's sad, and it's life.
5. my friends will always be there for me. even if they live miles away and are married. i know that we will always be friends/sisters/brothers and i should not get down on the fact that they are gone. they are with me all the time.
life. i'm experiencing it. i'm living it. i'm learning. i may not be perfect, but everyday i mold a little more. and i'm ok with that.
