"i've always felt so scared of all this needing"

I’ve always felt so scared of all this needing
Everyone that I’ve met has been somewhat mistreated
That’s how it feels when you know that something’s wrong.

Then you came along like a swan off of the lake
You flew across my eyes and out into space,
And I ran and I crawled and I chased to get out fast.

That’s what I did…

And if all else fails then the ship won’t set sail.
God forbid but I guess the both of us will bail
But as far as I can tell I think things will be swell.

Have you seen me cry tears like diamonds
Down and down they fly, faster and faster like the speed of our love
Batting a thousand, but a homerun crack at love
This is where I tell you that, I know love's what I need to work at

So now the two of us rely on each other
With our premonitions out in the gutter
Who would have thought that I’d make it this far

I’ll make it seem like I’m stronger but I’m quite the actor
And now I’m so caught up and I can’t escape this pattern
But when I started losing hope, there you were, there you bloomed


my mind is a thrift store. random, useless, sporadic, pathetic, paranoid, broken, un-opened, nostalgic, shiny, thoughts.

bury them.

"and i would walk 500 miles, and i would walk 500 more, just to be the man to walk 1000 miles to fall down at your door."

to miss someone. one of the most deeply rooted feelings in your heart, besides love.

it's a longing. a yearning. a need for a touch, a sound, an image, a comfort.

sometimes it's a happy miss, and you feel you can last while this certain person is away.

sometimes it's a miserable miss, and you don't feel like moving from your bed because you just want them back in your arms.

absence makes the heart grow stronger, but the only way for it to grow stronger, is for the heart to go through rigorous training. and that leaves it sore.

my heart is really sore right now.