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this bed is wide enough for two.
with eyes still closed, my hand searches for you.
the rain makes a rhythm of it's own outside,
the road striped like tigers at night.

i had spiders in my eyes while moth's tested your back.
i had spiders in my eyes.

those 9 months slipped through my fingers like sand
faster as it neared the end.
the edges burn like parchment on fire,
the embers of melancholy grow ever higher.

i had spiders in my eyes while moth's tested your back.
i had spiders in my eyes.

remember the nights of sleepless discovery?
the nights we stared at the walls
pain evident, the back of our minds.
we were never enough for that apartment dorm.

i had spiders in my eyes while moth's tested your back.
i had spiders in my eyes.

"i've plagued you're mind, you will never go back to being blind. step away from my light, i need shine."

I fell into the street
Poison in my veins
Clamber to my feet
And into the night again
Back to my home
Back to my owner
Who screams at my tardiness
Put his hands to the sky

And says
'What can I do, with a girl
If she refuses to be mine?'

In his bed I am queen
Unobtainable me
Human with feelings
The two are not me
The two will not be mine

Put his hand on my shirt
Hand on my face
Head to the wall
When you've broken your only doll

And what will you do
With a girl
If she refuses to be alive?

i am me. i am a doll. unwilling to be the doll that i am. reinforcing my porcelain. not a collectors item. just the doll that seems to find her way to the treasure chests. but when that doll dances, she is untouchable. untouchable reinforced porcelain doll. that's me.